It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you, But when we are apart I feel it too. And no matter what I do I feel the pain, With or without you.

Living a ambiguous life, a Life that contradicts, full of stereotypes, No, not me.
i woke up today with the vibrating sound of my hp on the chair beside me, looking out the window were dark skies and water droplets foaming on the window. the cold night could have cause it.
Breakfast wasn't as good as the week before, manage only half the plate.

and I m reminded of what happen, last emerge day, last year.

Invested wasted money on the phone. But its has been a long time since i last did it.
The night rain is falling me into sleep. Tutorials will start in less den 12hours time. and i m so worried yet not, for it. Hope everything turns out well.

I sometimes walk in GREAT fear in life. 1 hand, Heaven is open over me. but FAITH will increase, a seedtime and harvest journey will re-start again. Faith will expand again. time of lack will come again. BUT, all these are cycles of life.

Gonna start "schooling" soon. Hope i get use to it.

Sticking to 1 simple rule, One Heart, One Journey, One Purpose.
Happy Birthday To YOU.
Pst Started to ask us to visualize our new stadium, but I had been visualizing something MORE then that. Great destiny starts from the heart.
I spent the day under WHITE HOT skies, walking under little air-conditioning area. Saw nice if not beautiful shirts that i really wanted, Had the money, but NO money for that shirt.

Faces turned little black when i appear with, but things still uncleared.
Walking under open heaven feels good. all ready to build God His stadium.

Promises Received, sounded great and worth looking forward to. The month of november, shall be renamed to, Month of business. Practically, events every other day and week, that i have to forgo 2 very important things. So, i wont get my driving license so soon.

Things to look forward for, ( not in order )
1) my driver's license
2) my financial advisor's license
3) my Pink IC
4) my 1st client deal
5) meeting up with owner of Tommy and tommy bear

God has been really really, i mean, REALLY good to me.

Things are so uncertain at times.. to walk left or right. or shld i take a U-turn
I ate, and later reget eating. hws regretful.

God has been Good, "try me now in this that i would not open the windows of heaven and pour out blessings...."

So preparing for so much upcoming things, M5, M9, HI test, BTT, and BF also.

He is awesome in this place.

mugging... as if.
preparing for Basic theory test 041207
and for Module 5 test of " rules and regulation for financial advisory studies.

drats.. i haven touch or studied anything for 2 or more years.. hopefullly i past pass these 2 test.

almost ending my NS term.. ALMOST THERE! i'll still have to hang-in. 14working days seems lik 1mth plus to me.. drats......

still fighting flu and cough.. i hate it when she screams.. when there is onli so few pple around. why.....

I understand that tis post isnt expected of me. many will know i odd to be inside. but so? reality says i m here blogging. so tts it.. but reality is always temporal.

I heard things i woundnt want to hear which actually broke my heart.again, reality is present. and it is temporal. Wished everything would change.

Things can/could have been better for me.

DR Ar. Bernard's messages are inspiring me deeper and deeper.

So Jesus said, See u at the other side.

Words fired across... moods were affected, suppose to be a happy event,
yet, things turn out the wrong way.

disagreements? plenty.
discouraging, authoritative.

Thoughts were wronged, Unused Words planted.

When can tis ever end....

somethings are better for you not known.

how i wonder.

Thanks to all who stood by me, the past few days when i was down, i m getting better, already. :)
Thanks for your prayers, your words, your wishes, . Thanks for being part of my life.

to those that duno wad i meant above... callurselfafren.!

BTT booked on 041207. hope everything goes well the 1st time...

well, Event 002 coming up tmr. expecting something

Many time offen we regret why is things this way now, then back then i should have done things correctly..?? How many will actually realise that things are the way they were all because
its the will from ABove. think about it.. many things, aint decided by us, men; the way the tree grows, its height, size, place, length of life, wad fruits they bear, isnt it the same for all of us human? we cant decided, the place we were born to, the religion we grow up in, the family situational hazards we'll face, but still, we face life, we go through life. like it or not.

though, thoughts, ideas, and actions does matters, but offen we made mistakes too our actions of the past, do play an impact, something in the present now, sadly its impossible to change what has been done, but we can start change/shaping the future we want it to be in.