Prom Night?

It's sth tt would forever be remembered.
Had mine yrs ago, memories engrave in the hearts
but, not in pictures.

Biting tongue is never easy. The pain it brings.

The sky is red,
The clouds are white,
Sitting in my room,
Blogging in the night.

TATA... its camp time.


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Blindfolded life

How do 1 feel, when walking everywhere blindfolded. They aint totally blind, some of blindfolds, do have light penetrating into one's eyes.

Tts exactly what we live with. Walking in life, with God's light, but often blinded folded by the earthly, worldly views, appearance, or habits. surely, we can see light penetrating from the bottom or side, but cause the mass is covered. we continue to walk "blindly" when all we need to do, is to remove the blindfold and walk with His sight.

I'd have my fair share of darkness, and i dont wanna walk in the former ever again.


Hit me baby, ONE MORE TIME

the 4days of tutorials over, and i could only understand 60% of it. thats bad.. cos i need at least 80% correct answered qns in the test to pass m9. drats. and m5 have to be retaken. and i'm gonan ord.. and, aint got a job yet. to survive during the christmas period.

It is nearing,.. and still not doing much.
i drat doing wrong things.. making wrong mistakes.

made kewl new friends in the 4days course. contacts shared. but, there's sth MORE i wanted.
and i hate the feeling of being in camp for 1 whole week again... *sigh*

I'm lil over my other side today, not me. Just so not me. I wished i've answered questions with more cautions. how yet to do it again.. fears will certainly set in.
Pastoral approached does work on me. right?? ms pastoral. haha. ( you know who you are)

yet still, have to finish attending M9 tutorial. Harder to understand. with maths calculationsssss.
Praying there'll be no more repeats of disappointments... I hate studying... really....

Stressed if spelled backwords dessertS. of only there taste as good as Fullerton's tiramitsu.

Help me.... I cant seem to continue swimming anymore on this ocean

I wanna get bigger. I wanna be stronger. I wanna get closer, I wanna feel higher
I find it il' hard to understand lessons in the morning.. I shld eat a proper breakfast tmr.
My brain cant function, without sweets in class. Gosh.. and sweets can onli give me a kick for tt moment.. and soon, i'll have to pop another..

M5 test, tmr at 1900hrs. was told by lecturer to leave class at 1700 so can go for dinner and prepare. Thanks too all who wished me.. If i pass, i'll blog here tmr, if i dont, i'll also blog abt it here.

the moon has risen to abt half-mass already. time to sleep. its only in 6hours time that i'll see sun again.

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, couldnt sworn I was dreamin, for her I was
feeing, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking over these few years, trying figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz Ever since you left me, my whole life came crashing

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right cuz without u int, my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through
Never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing you
Cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me be so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and
Come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished I ever Hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz....

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okie, its gonna stir a hoo haa,

hadnt felt right since i woke up tis morning. i slept on the left side of the bed, perhaps the bad happen.
try to go the right side tonight.
it's weird that, i'm feel illtired when its onli 9, when my usual bedtiming is 2am.
oh yar.. M5 exam is on tuesday, at 1900hrs.. keep me in prayer for that...
on leave the whole week , so expect lots of me here....

shld i make my entries understandable to everyone again???
tag ur comments

I'm Seeing God's seasonal change. there're things HE wants me to do. that i'll have to follow. things that requires faith and even more actions.

My ORD is nearing, 6working days, plus 8 AL, and another 2weekends... all in all..
the smell of my pink IC, tt has been sitting in some shelf at cmpb for the past 24months finally have the chance to come out of its hole.

but worries sets in, yes, i have gotten a place in prudential, but, still have to pass the 2 papers then i could start full time. what happens fm ORD till the 2nd paper , wad do i do? where will my income source come.

A sense of responsibility is nearing, its getting louder by day. and there is always the temptation to say.. "BUT..."

i wish, all these things hadn't had happened. if only i could back time.
past 6days in camp. didnt do much, didnt pray much, didnt read much.
I hope for a greener day tmr, and changes in all things.

Though, things said, cant be undone, things happen, cant be returned.
but as the bible says, dont look back.
Its hard. inside and outside, inner and outer

I still miss,
I still think of
I still longed for

again, time factor.


WIll things get better??

NO update for 1 week, back in camp. and no leave tis week, drats.
Its a good to carry His presence everywhere i go.

and things are returning back to what it use to be, or so i think.

and its hard also to accept duties on a sunday morning.

till nxt friday.. no blogging

why!??!?! why!??! is ambiguous blogging a IN thing now

Had a long evening juz nw.
Dinner and sight seeing.
my heart still feels so cold....its only a matter of time.


My Fish and Chips meal
at botak jones

another view













Of course can tell that i don't eat salad. tis dont belong to me.














and aft everthing, sight seeing at marina pier

wasted day. the mind's always stronger then the heart. but in fact, the Heart shld be the 1 speaking not the mind. what is done cannot be undone.

Thoughts, are something to play with, but, there danger lies within.
how would 1 think with the heart? not the mind.

i juz cant wait for the future to come, but time is keeping that now.
why cant juz some 1 turn the clock forward,
why do a clock read, seconds, mins and hours,
why not days, months and years.
only then will time seems fast.


Sigh

the brain isn't cooperating with me. I need to do , but it wants something eles.
Completed 2 impt part of my ord clearance today, left with 4 more.

spent the night playing PS2 in the pantry, being a feast to the flying mozzies inside it.
but i don see any bite marks on me the nxt morning.
Miss lunch, cos i wanted to dine at the canteen, but when i went over, it was closed. so no lunch today. dinner was as usual, sucky
i wont miss these food at all when i leave army. its more of a breakup with the food providers.

HAPPY INDIAN NEW YEAR TO ALL INDIANS.

“Vision without action is merely a dream. Action without vision just passes the time.
Vision with action can change the world.” - Joel Barker, The Star Thrower Story

It's tearin' up my heart when I'm with you, But when we are apart I feel it too. And no matter what I do I feel the pain, With or without you.

Living a ambiguous life, a Life that contradicts, full of stereotypes, No, not me.
i woke up today with the vibrating sound of my hp on the chair beside me, looking out the window were dark skies and water droplets foaming on the window. the cold night could have cause it.
Breakfast wasn't as good as the week before, manage only half the plate.

and I m reminded of what happen, last emerge day, last year.

Invested wasted money on the phone. But its has been a long time since i last did it.
The night rain is falling me into sleep. Tutorials will start in less den 12hours time. and i m so worried yet not, for it. Hope everything turns out well.

I sometimes walk in GREAT fear in life. 1 hand, Heaven is open over me. but FAITH will increase, a seedtime and harvest journey will re-start again. Faith will expand again. time of lack will come again. BUT, all these are cycles of life.

Gonna start "schooling" soon. Hope i get use to it.

Sticking to 1 simple rule, One Heart, One Journey, One Purpose.
Happy Birthday To YOU.
Pst Started to ask us to visualize our new stadium, but I had been visualizing something MORE then that. Great destiny starts from the heart.
I spent the day under WHITE HOT skies, walking under little air-conditioning area. Saw nice if not beautiful shirts that i really wanted, Had the money, but NO money for that shirt.

Faces turned little black when i appear with, but things still uncleared.
Walking under open heaven feels good. all ready to build God His stadium.

Promises Received, sounded great and worth looking forward to. The month of november, shall be renamed to, Month of business. Practically, events every other day and week, that i have to forgo 2 very important things. So, i wont get my driving license so soon.

Things to look forward for, ( not in order )
1) my driver's license
2) my financial advisor's license
3) my Pink IC
4) my 1st client deal
5) meeting up with owner of Tommy and tommy bear

God has been really really, i mean, REALLY good to me.